That silver lining.

Having a hard time today. Feeling really weepy. And sad. And confused. And angry.

Good God I've become a teenager again!

In all seriousness, no I have not. It's been a strange week. I found out earlier this week that a high school acquaintance passed away unexpectedly. I'm sorry for her family. But then it got me to thinking.

What if it were me? Makes you wonder. Not that death should be a popularity contest but still, who would grieve for me? That's easy. My husband and children. And while I'm trying not to have a pity party for my own problems, it's hard to remember that yes, these four people's lives would be drastically altered should anything ever happen to me.

I worry a lot about things. And yet, have NO motivation to change things. And that in turn, makes me upset. Which makes me turn to food. Then I'm lethargic. And while I'm inert, I worry. And may the circle be unbroken.

Grr.

It could also be that my husband snored like a jet engine last night. He's not feeling well but this night really is no different than any other. More often than not, I lose at least an hour and a half if not more of sleep a night due to his snoring. So I'm tired.

To fix that, I will be making the "office" into my bedroom. I will put the computer in the family room. I will create the room of MY dreams. Because a lot of my dreams have been put on hold due to my husband's new job.

I was angry at first. But now I'm trying to accept it and realize that I need to focus on important stuff now. Things like money, health, house and children.

Perhaps this move was better in the long run anyway. Making me focus on the big things that need to be changed instead of the things that won't happen for a while.

Wish me luck. Good luck to you too!

Happy Autumnal Equinox. I think.

Well, it's that time of year again. Normally, I'm all for it. But today just isn't happenin'. Miscommunication and missed communication. Kids up WAAAY too early. Dog pooped in the house - again. (Thankfully she's small so it's not that big of a deal but still!) My friend Kristy says the planets are out of alignment.

Works for me!

I will say the puppy is asleep on my foot as I write so that's good. The baby is napping after a busy time in the park. Because of the missed communication, we spent the time at the park, flying kites. Baby was in a swing, puppy in full sniff mode with Dad and I trying to just make sure nobody got lost.

I'd rant about the Facebook posts about politics but really, a nap is more important right now and wouldn't get me into nearly as much trouble.

So all in all, not the worst day, for sure. A nap and a shower will defintely make things MUCH better.